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Left-Wing Melancholy is a Death Wish

Left-Wing Melancholy (LWM): Feeling of senseless of the present and futility of the future, coupled with a sweet delight of the lost past. It differs from ordinary melancholy by its fixation on the general unattainable, and therefore unrealizable, good. Formed in light of the today’s contrast of communism for the elite in the Silicon Valley (see “utopia of consumption”, “utopia of technology”) and the collapse/obsolescence/alienation of all the previously accepted forms of mobilization and organization of liberation movements. (here)

LWM, in short, nostalgia for a better yesterday, and sadness in a lost tomorrow. An idea which is entirely in-keeping with the pithy throwaway line “It is easier to imagine the end of the world than to imagine the end of capitalism”. (See Zizek, Jameson or Fisher.)

I’ve recently come to another pragmatic roadblock with regards to Left/Right attitudes, one so utterly cumbersome and frustrating that I decided once again to dip my toes into recursive political writing – God this shit never ends! – anyways, for you proles, the attitude is roughly thus: The Left sees a vast multitude of their problems as coming from the maliciousness of capital(ism) – I know, original right…and by the way the bracketing of capital(ism) is important, and is to be returned to later. Whereas the Right sees the majority of their problems as faults (tricky wording for any seething Leftie) within a fairly straightforward system. Let’s delve into this excrement.

I’ll start with an extrapolation of the Right-wing view here as – with regards to this issue – it’s the one I hold. Quickfire Round: Westerner, young, educated, middle class and have easy access to that which fulfils my needs. That’s right baby, I’m in the sweetspot, this isn’t just privilege, this is M&S privilege! Of course, that’s what any Leftie would say when reviewing my cosmically random social attributes, that I’m privileged. Oh for sure what I have is extremely nice, comforting and easy to get-by with. Whether or not it’s privilege is another issue entirely, and one I wont delve too much into here. Now, back to the Right-Wing view as-per one’s own ‘problems’. Let’s list some things righties may see as problems: Bad health, bad fitness, bad diet, bad finances, low education, lack of responsibility and lack of meaning, to name a few. Now with regards to a Right-Wing perspective each of these can – if one has the impetus – be fixed.

You’re unfit? Go to the gym, can’t afford the gym? Do a bodyweight routine at home, haven’t got the time? It takes 30 minutes to one hour per day, now we’re in excuse territory (Something you can’t blame capital for…later)

Bad diet? Do 30 minutes of research and eat healthy food, can’t afford healthy food? There’s affordable healthy options if one is to take the time to prepare them.

Bad finances? Prioritize, stop spending your money on useless entertainment that you’ll drop at a moments notice.

Low education? Part time distance learning, online courses, library books, Youtube tutorials.

Lack of responsibility? Take responsibility for the above and you find that the last item – meaning – comes into your lives.

Congratulations, you’ve just become a shitlord.

 

You hear that? It’s out-of-shape lefties seething at the very core of their Being. Let’s roll through what they’re going to say.

“Go to the gym, you say! But why? Do you not understand that the idea of ‘fitness’ is merely capital(ist) propaganda to make you believe the idea of work is beneficial?!”

“Dieting! Healthy Eating! Do you not know that both of these things are merely forms of capital(ist) propaganda used as a means to continue the idea of body dissatisfaction and fat shaming?!”

“Bad finances?! Oh, so we should all just succumb to the life of an ascetic should we? You want me to sacrifice my social life for what? So I can put my money is some capital(ist) savings Bank?”

“Low education, oh great, here we go again! The undereducated are lesser people are they?!”

“Responsibility, well, life’s inherently meaningless anyway and it’s easier to imagine the end of the world that the end of capitalism, so I’d only be taking responsibility for capital(ism) so why bother?”

 

I feel a little sick after typing those out. But hey, I’m sure they’ll be accepted without any backlash. Ok, I somewhat shoehorned capital(ism) in there for most of them, but if one is to do a quick Google search, one finds that at pretty much every turn Lefties and left-wing journals tend to push the blame onto the – now – free-floating signifier that is ‘capital’ or ‘capitalism’. And this is why I’ve been bracketing it. Because a vast amount of contemporary politicians and philosophers, alongside amateur theorists and bloggers – more often that not of a leftist calling – use this word ‘capital’ in a free-floating way. What they really mean by ‘capital’ is this.

Within contemporary (hype) political usage Capital means the tempo-historical deification of Capitalism as a means of shifting every single fault of self, society, religion, family, locality or ego onto an indistinct ideological catch-all. Hell, I’ve done it a few times. And so I put it to you that the infamous quote: “It’s easier to imagine the end of the world than to imagine the end of capitalism” in a contemporary sense that is, actually means: “It’s easier to imagine the end of MY world than to give up capitalism.”

Leftists, in their incessant dogma that all forms of ‘wellness’ are capitalist propaganda enter themselves into toxic double-bind. Psychologically a priori to them is the fact that capitalism is bad, and thus all that is connected to capitalism is bad, including ‘wellness’ and as such they want that which is not capitalism, which is not ‘wellness’ subsumed into capitalism. They wish for some strange form of Utopian collective support network they really can’t explain. One where what? You each spoonfeed each other vitamins in some kind of Marxist prayer circle?

The idea of waking up and feeling alive, feeling good, feeling well spans back throughout all of history, and when it is absent look for the writings of those being tortured and ask of that which almost certainly seek. You wish for this ‘better’ life and yet cannot even fathom the idea that capital is not everywhere (shock fucking horror!) you may step out of your door without your earbuds in or a phone in your pocket, you may go for a walk and think not of how to overthrow capitalism, you could go see how it feels to attend to that which your body and mind almost certainly crave, care. But you wont, the idea of actual care is utterly alien to you. Capital hasn’t taken it away, you’re simply too wrapped up in your own narcissism to part with the only thing that gives your life meaning, the depressive dregs of left-wing melancholy which you cuddle night and day in a ritual of pride! You could metaphorically logoff from all the inputs that you know allow you the political melancholia you so crave, you could do so and undertake many-a fulfilling action, task, job, pastime, event or scene, the majority of which were – and have never been – tied to any political outlook, it is you personally whom allowed the idea of parasitic capital to infect your entire life, so do not blame those who walk a path entirely alien to your very Being.

Oh you poor things, yearning for a better yesterday, because of course one needs no excuse for that which is impossible to reach such as…the past. And yet still so sad about that forgotten tomorrow, you managed to put all of time in the past, you’ve given up the flame to the version of you that never was, and never would be! Perhaps it’s best you wallow in your depressive cocoon forever more, for I’m sure on exiting you’ll notice how it has become attached to your shadow.

Accult

 

TEXT ONLY

Fucking ‘text only’, as if that stops any subsumption into the transcendental numerical rot-system. This isn’t even a merger, by it’s very nature that which is Being has always already been or is going to become, so let’s not kid ourselves in thinking any new (Acc)eleration Occ(ult) prefix-suffix acc-sphere qwerty control is of any real control. Neologisms are nothing but your own creations, nodes to stop you losing your mind as it fragments into Accultic chaos. Numeric culture integrated into a digital hyperstition system as to propagate Acceleration. That’s all backwards – literally. Noumenal outer-edges can sodomize the linear into blitzed nothingness, they make of nothing a ness, that’s utterly foul if you ask me. Reduction of the “-eternal hypercosmic delight.” (Land, Qabbala 101) into systematic analog ritual-space I think not. Once again reverse it. Hypercosmic numeric eternity bereft of anthropocentric logic systems reeling you into temporal chasmic diagonal. Cosmic-meta-texts placed at cross-referencing spacio-temporal points:

 

‘Templexity’ – as a sign – marks the suspicion that, if we are waiting for this to happen, we still understand nothing. (Templexity, KL 58-63)

 

By the time you’re dealing with the numbers, it’s all already going, heading, directing, taking its trajectory. You’re acting out a Qabbalist reduction under the searing heat of the sun, the numbers enter into a suspiciously dirty and mocking recursion and you don’t know whether to laugh or cry. It’s already happened you fuckwit. Coherent calculations can only be of a dead numeric culture. Maybe only recently deceased, but even so the pages are static with dead time – too late…again. How does it feel fleshboy, working out the future after the fact which is about to come from your determined past and present, feel like weeping yet?

Anyway this merging comes from a the blind panic of Continental grammar, look close enough and the pauses are delusional, and no it’s not just because they’re fucking French. They’re up to something, or that which is controlling them is up to something – more than definitely the latter. Tendrils spiralling this way and that in all-of-time, fucking around with ‘humanity’ whatever that be to them…for them. Clocking into always already dated analog systems and infecting them with oddities inducing a cultural paranoia. You wish to witness Cthulic temporality, look to the 70’s.

 

 

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(585/2) = (Gematriculator Value/No on List)

~already spooked~

 

Accult =114 = Lemur

~sweating already~

And then a Lemur invades. (390/7)

You cannot stop a Diagonal (460/7).

Always Already Beyond Semantic ‘Activation’ (743/2).

This is the Basics of Acceleration (558/2).

So Let’s Begin (226/18 is 11).

Accelerate the Process (381) Begins the Ritual (305) = ~the beginning of~ Metaprogramming = Follow ~ing~ ~this~ Line ~305 is a dirty messianic temporal recursion~ The Accelerationist Ritual (484/ into both 4 & 11)

(484+381=) 865 ~a lot of dirty, nostalgic nonsense, perhaps the ritual needs renaming~

 

Accelerate the Process is the Ritual = 622 = Producer of Digital Hyperstition ~now we’re getting somewhere~

 

~We can go far further, what if I was to say to you that~ Gilles Deleuze and Felix Guattari (575/5) ~were far more than each counterpart, they even warned us~ “Since each of us was several” (460/2 – P1, A Thousand Plateaus, Bloomsbury)

 

 

~decided to stop playing around and attend to the ritual passage~

 

 

“Or might it be to go in the opposite direction-” (784/2) “-to go still further,-” (369/17) ~turned to the dead noumena more like~ “-that is,-” (131/1) ~the clearest clue to occult nature of the ritual~ 

“-in the movement of the market,-” (501/2) ~a little too Cartesian~ “-of decoding and deterritorialization?-” (646/3) ~heed the warning is my guess~ “- For perhaps the flows are not yet deterritorialized enough-” (1071 = 9) ~shivers~ “not decoded enough,” (303/14) “from the viewpoint of a theory and a practice of a highly schizophrenic character.” (1359 = 18 = 9) ~bigger shivers~ “Not to withdraw from the process-” (613/1) “-but to go further,” (322/12) ~cheeky one this one~ “to “accelerate the process”-” (434/1) “-as Nietzsche put it:” (359/8) ~horrifyingly fitting, recursive arsehole~ “in this matter,-” (264/8 and 16) ~the doubling is of NO surprise~ “-the truth is that we haven’t seen anything yet.” (819 = 9)

~Which allows 3 sentences 1071, 1359 and 819 of 9 words or more (2 of which ARE 9 words – potential mistake at 1359?) outside of the fluid chant, here we go:

784+369+131+501+646+1071+303+1359+613+322+434+359+264+819 = 7975 = 28

784 = 19 = 10 = 1

369 = 18 = 9

131 = 5

501 = 6

646 = 16 = 7

1071 = 9

303 = 6

1359 = 18 = 9

613 = 10 = 1

322 = 7

434 = 11 = 2

359 = 17 = 8

264 = 12 = 3

819 = 18 = 9

19567969172839 = 82

~28 & 82…odd~